I feel broken
there's no missing piece but I'm just shattered and scattering all over the places.
No one can fix me
because I am void.. too much space left to pour in me to make it full.
I'm finally taking sleeping pills.. Some night I double dose or even more than double.. the getting up on the next day with dizziness and more pissed why did I wake up again.
I am so fucking tired
and I want to end my life as soon as I can but there's so many things I still want to do.
at least getting some hugs from people I love..
that's all I want.. but I have no one.. to turn to.. I have to face and get through this alone..
I just hope that I can still have a breath to go on.
Written in this book
life in the following pandemic year with anxiety and there's more to experience
I read, I write and I take photos