Unknown 11/2020
I wish I can just disappear.. 
but before that I want to tell you that I miss you.. I've been thinking of you most of the time since we're back to be in touch.. and it's over 4 months.. of talking even it's not everyday.. 

We're not dating..

I still want to know how are your days.. and I'd like to share how my days were.. 

I want to tell you about my dreams at night.. 

The nights that I wish you spoon me and kiss me softly with good night wish before falling asleep together.

I am day-dreaming again.

Why am I becoming too soft like this? 

I just really like you..
I think you know about that.. You know very well about that.. You just.. hhrrrr..
We just can't commit to long-distanced relationship. Not during this time or anytime.. I remember about your clarification on relationship precisely, what you said, 

..don't forget that we have oceans between us..
That reminds me well to be realistic..like a kick in my head..  What we have now is just friendship with some 'benefits' to be exactly..

And I dare not asking you for any further quest.. 

What if I tell you all of this, will you just disappear or 'ghost' me?! 

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2020 Unknown (ended)
It's a new year with new chapters in one's life but when someone in the past has returned. Two people who would like to keep growing their friendships strong. And it's clearly now that there is no 'us' together in the future.
reader, casually writer & amateur photographer