pathetic me
Gosh! I miss you! It's unexplainable to this feeling..

But why?

I have confessed my heart to you. Not that I told you to get together with me. But that's kind of implied that since we're both single.

I am so crazy about you.. 

Would you like to know why?

Because you tease me like lovers do, you teach me like brother-sister do and you also read me through about who I am?

That's how you know that I like certain things, right?

But you got to the specific preference.. how?!

I don't even know much about you!

All I know is, 
your sweet gentle smile is like a charging battery, filling me the happiness.

I am surprised how I really love your face when you smile and your dreamy deep voice with the accent that I have never thought I would be so fancy about..

I keep imaging about you hold me in your arms.. kiss on my forehead.. and tell me that you are mine.. and I am yours.

Sometimes I had dreams which were about you. I wish it would be come true when it's about we met and got together. But I would almost tear my eyeballs out when it's about we couldn't be together or you had to leave me.. It was almost real to hit my heart and get me sobbed.

Boy, I can't let you go.

It would kill me if you said so.

I won't beg you if you want to leave me.

But I may not be able to live without you..

So please consider.. that you won't hurt me.. at least..

I know that we've the oceans between us. Yet, anything is possible, if we try hard enough. Would you like to try it with me?

Yes, I am selfish but I do like you so much, much enough for me to say, I love you. And I want you to know that I mean all the good happening for you.

If I am not one of the good.. then please tell me before I am getting too deep..

I may be in sorrow for awhile.. but I'll get better like I have always been. 

Written in this book
2020 Unknown (ended)
It's a new year with new chapters in one's life but when someone in the past has returned. Two people who would like to keep growing their friendships strong. And it's clearly now that there is no 'us' together in the future.
reader, casually writer & amateur photographer