Pathetic me
When we weren't this close, I used to look at you from far away
I used to wish for the day I get to work side by side with you
I thought maybe, just maybe, I could make you fall for me
and I would be able to show you how much I care
How much I really regard you as someone really important in my life
But ironically, I got everything I have ever wished for when it's too late
I got the chance to work by your side now
I got everything I have ever wanted with you, except your heart
Because no matter how much love I have for you
In your heart, it's always her
I knew that all too well because I saw the way you look at her... 
like she is everything
like she is your world
like she is the only thing you will ever love and care for
...
like the way I look at you

Why does it have to be like this?
Why do I have to stuck with the feeling I have for you?
It's so damn painful to look at you looking at her that way
so damn painful to listen to you talking about her
I don't want to be like this
I want to move on
I don't want to feel anything for you anymore because everytime I realize how stupid I am to still be here after all these years... I just want to cry my heart out
But the tear won't come out...

I hate myself for not being enough
I hate myself for being that bitch who sort of threaten somebody else's relationship
I hate myself for still having feeling for you after all this time
I don't want to be like this anymore




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