Last sunset of 2018 (ENG)
“Tomorrow is a new page,” I’ve heard people said that countless times on the New Year’s Eve. But humans don’t shed our feelings like snakes shedding their skins. Most of us don’t have the kind of switch to turn on and off our emotion receptors (how I wish we did, especially when we toss and turn all night trying to sleep!).

And because of that, I just want to tell some of us out there that it’s absolutely okay if you don’t feel like nothing would change tomorrow. I’m with you here 😂, speaking as someone who is often lost in the realm of time and forgot how old I am or how much time has passed. Time is this elusive concept I can’t quite grasp.

So, instead of counting the months and years, I collect memories as my stamps of time. I’m so thankful for all the memories from the past year. Yes, I’ve been running around (literally and figuratively) frantically trying to stay alive with all limbs intact. I’ve doubted myself and this path I’m taking. I’ve been through ups and downs, feeling like an under-achiever and so on (been there, done that) despite how positive and optimistic I try to be. But these memories make me who I am, failures included, and I wouldn’t want to change anything.

To all of you that are struggling, to all of you that are not feeling as festive as the rest of the world seems to be, I’m with you. And don’t worry, there’s nothing wrong with that. We’ll be fine and the new year will sink in somehow, just perhaps not now.

2018 has been one whirlwind of a year, much has happened, and much has remained the same. For one thing I’m sure, though, is that I’m not the same person I was yesterday, nor last year. A year might feel as long as one minute or a decade in my dimension, but to remember that none of us will remain the same has helped me to remain grounded and sane in this hectic world. Feelings won’t last, they are as ephemeral as we humans are.

Like this beautiful sunset, there is no light without shadow, and life is complete the way it is, no more and no less, right here, right where we are.

Thank you for going through everything with me, all of you.

It’s been a bittersweet journey, hasn’t it?
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