WOMAN I - Attention
I woke up feeling everything was wrong, everything about me was wrong. 
I didn’t feel like getting up neither wanted to go back to sleep.
I was rolling in bed tryna source things out, then I got up
and decided to go to the gym hoping to sweat all my thoughts and anger out.

I was not sure if it really helps.
I came back from the gym and headed into a shower right away.
I started tearing up. I didn’t know what was wrong.
It just didn’t feel right to me.

And then I realized.
I didn’t want to be here and I wasn’t happy to be there or anywhere.
So where do I really want to be then?

Maybe somewhere warm and safe. Somewhere that it would make me feel like home. 
I just wanted a place that I can rest my exhausted body and weary heart.
A place that there will be someone there for me. Someone who holds me tight. Someone who understands me, cares about me, always keeps me safe. Someone who truly wants to be with me.
All I wanted was just someone and his attentions.
Yes, I chose that word "attentions". 
I didn’t want to say his love because I am not sure if love is a right word for me.
I’m not sure if I’m ready for love, actually I’m not sure if love is ready for me.

I just need attention. 
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