Leaving is hard for both of us.
Maybe it's hard for only ME, not for "both of us" like you said.

Once, you shown up in my life and then you left, so soon. 
You going to see the new place, new people and new whatever while I still stay here, the place with thousands memories of us. 
Do you think it's gonna be easy to move on?
I definitely can tell that IT ABSOLUTELY IS NOT EASY TO MOVE ON FROM THIS POINT. 

I did expect and imagine that we can be in a complicated thing called relationship.
But all of that shit collapsed when you told me that you have to move to another place. 
Plus, you told me two days before my birthday. Was I deserve to know that kind of thing before my spacial day?
It was both good and suck that you let me know about you leaving. 
It was good because it meant I still matters to you, but it was suck because you should told me after my birthday.

I was fucking sad , depressed and confused. Totally in the dark feelings world. Everything was empty and endlessness. Basically, alcohol is not my big thing. But that night I did want to drink af. Even worse I was broke, fml. 
                    I DO LIKE YOU.                           YOU GAVE ME BUTTERFLIES             IN MY STOMACH.That night you came to me and felt a little bit uncomfortable
You asked for my contacts and we dated the day after. The first hug you gave me i felt weird with it ,but I do want it after our second date.
We stay pretty far from each other. But you have been showing me that distance is doesn't matter. You can come to see me wherever I'm at , and whenever I want you to come. 
My feelings for you was developed so fast. In contrast, you feelings for me probably was decreased. So many reasons were possible. I was tried to figure those out. 
I tried until I was tired by doing that thing. Then I asked you what's wrong between us, and  your answer was nothing wrong you have jusy busy with your works and stuff. 
No one is always busy in this world.       It's all about prioritiesThis quote is heck true.You probably lost your interesting on me, or you may think that I always there for you or whatever was possible.

We talked less than the way we used to be. I asked you about this thing but you still told me that there was nothing wrong between us and I was still on your mind.
You were hanging out with me because you like me, and those did make sense. 

We were hanging out together on and off later. I did miss the previous time we've met. 
Why the world was completely happy with you back then and why the world fucking mean to me right now? 
When we first hold each other hand I felt a thousand of butterflies were in my stomach. We were walking along the road and talking about us and stuff. It was happy as fuck. Tons of happy and delightful memories were growing up so fast. You were always there whenever I want. I can tell that I felt like you're my Lucky Star but sadly, my lucky stars gone so soon. 

LIFE HAVE TO MOVE ON
Yeah, right. Life have to move on. I still keep that in my mind. 
But in real life,  life is not that easy like the quote. Even worse, I may struck in my dark world for a while until i reach my reverse point and then I can move on.

I was a happy, cheerful, confident, energetic and positive thinking girl before I met you. 
Now I'm such a shit,  weak, fear,  paranoid , devastated , frustrated , vulnerable. 
Even worse, I scared to love again, because
PEOPLE COME AND GONE.All of these happened to me not because of you but because of my own expectations. 
I did involve you in my future,  that's why I hurt. I said I will be fine, that means I definitely will be fine. Stuff like this always happen to my life. 
You don't have to be worried about me.
I have more tolerance about being apart than you can imagine. TRUST ME.

We've been talking to each other off and on since my birthday.
Until this late afternoon you told me that you have to leave by tomorrow morning. 
What the heck wrong with you? Huh?
Why the fuck don't you told me earlier?
Jees! If you think it may help to make things about my feelings get better easier, i absolutely can tell that IT WORSE THAN YOU CAN IMAGINE. 

Even though we can hang out together in the last night, it doesn't help me to get over you easier. I maybe regret it a thousand times after you leave. Who knows, even myself. Sometime, I feel like I am a stranger live in this body and my mind is too complicated to understand. 

WHEN WE ARE APART,  TIMES MAY HELP ME TO GET BETTER FROM THIS POINT. 
       I AM GLAD THAT WE HAVE MET        AND I WILL NEVER REGRET IT.You're the best crush I ever had.Thank you for helping me to grow up in person.
I promise i will be the best of me until we meet again , no matter when and where. 

WHO KNOWS. 
MAYBE I CAN VISIT YOU IN CIADO AFTER I GRADUATED :)

I won't tell you that I will wait for you. 
But whenever you come back and I have no one, we can date again.
I'M REALLY GLAD TO HAVE YOU IN ONE.               PART OF MY ENTIRE LIFE.               YOU WILL ALWAYS IN MY SPIRIT.  we both need to grow up and be successful in life. 

SOMETIMES WHEN YOU LOVE SOMETHING YOU HAVE TO LET IT BE FREESAID YOUI LET YOU BE FREE BECAUSE OF THE SAME REASON. I HAVE NO REASON TO HOLDING YOU BACK FROM YOUR SUCCESSSAID ME
JULY 12, 2018







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I'm strong on the surface,not all the way through. I've never been perfect but neither have you

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